I'm proud of the workout I put in today, but oh, NOT for the effort on my part. It was largely flat and the worst one since this revitalization. I reached a place in my striking routine where both emotionally and physically, I struggled hard to keep extending. I began feeling it in the third set of my 3:00/1:00 minute approach and pushed until the 7th set where I didn't want to throw one more punch. I was tempted to hang up my gloves for the day. I paused my interval timer, popped back some sunflower seeds, and charged back into the fight to finish all 15 sets.

I'm so GLAD I dug down and made it. The funny thing is that I thought it would be a good workout—I was out there before 4AM coming off yesterday's rest day. The tweaks never buffed out, but I had high spirits. Then boom.

As much as I drive events with my will, whether weight loss or allocated energy, my body determines the environment. I would have preferred a snappity-snap-snap Monday morning session, but I'll pull through these as well as I drive to my goal.

Did my diet influence this? Yesterday, I made a shift with a return to broccoli & spinach; flax & sunflower seeds; and coffee & fats. And cacao powder! There is too much change to pin it on one target, and I'm doubling back to my carnivore focus, though I'm unsure as to how that would look like.

You know what they don't tell you about flax seed? Sure, we've grown it for a long, long time...to WEAR! While we think that people eating cotton on a diet is crazy, how is it any different that those who put linen into their smoothies?! Seriously, I've eaten a LOT of linen since 2018. Yep, flax: the same stuff they wrapped up mummies.

It's Sunday as I enter my very sorely needed rest day! Hopefully the minor dings I received last week will be buffed out today. Honestly, I felt a bounce in my step this morning and longed to GO, GO, GO, but these days are integral to my success, EVEN if my spirit wants to skip them...nevertheless, tomorrow must wait.

The future that lies ahead: I envision a 2021 that I wanted for 2015. Back then, I had this mindset that I would train and run a race every month as a motivator. Yet, as I prepared, personal tragedy struck and I chose to go into a tailspin for the year and never implemented that plan. I shelved it for another time.

Yet, the game plan remains and something I desire. CLEARLY, its been in my mind for years now. Now, why didn't I do it in 2018, 2019 or 2020? I always had this idea of "get me get down to goal wait and then rock out." And yet, it can be a part of the process as well and make for points of comparison as I drop weight and improve stamina.

And while there's a part of me that wants to get better before then, I get to have a chance for that as well as I'm thinking either March or April for its kickoff, as that would give me 4 to 5 months of prep time when I hope all these little dings will be the idiosyncrasies of the past.

As it has been said, "Because tomorrow the sun will rise. Who knows what the tide could bring?"

I track daily my nutritional intake with Cronometer—great site, can't recommend it enough! Today, I decided to run the numbers between The 14th Expedition and The 15th since they were comparable both with weightloss results (about 12 lbs), activity level and diet approach, save some adjustments I had made.

Interesting stuff, despite the same results, The 14th's daily averages to my most recent 6-weeks are:

• Calories: +579 kcal
• Carbs: +11 g
• Net Carbs: +2 g
• Fat: +74 g
• Protein: -24 g

The biggest change from 14 to 15 was that I had reduced or removed entirely my focus on fat with cheese, coconut oil and butter, specifically with Bulletproof coffee. Though I written about the farce that is our culture's goal of calorie reduction, I fell into the same trap myself, thinking if I took one thing out, I'd have an edge.

By that logic, I should have lost an additional 7 lbs...HOWEVER, there was no effect! Sure, a pound lost at 160 is wholly different than 260, but there's only a minor difference between 267 and 255.

So where do I go from here? Remember and recognize that my body chooses what should stay and what should go. While I still believe there's a correlation with calories, ultimately our bodies attempt to achieve homeostasis, when it chooses to rid itself of excess fat, it will. In the meantime, I'll continue to avoid non-contributing carbs and demand more from my body in the gym.

So, it's back to my luxurious butter and coconut oil coffee in the morning! Flax seeds, sunflower seeds and more!