While far from where I want the stable design, I whipped together a stylesheet for this site. I know, it looks a lot like my old one, and while its based off the prior synthwave vibe, it's new! Sometimes you just gotta reset things to bring some fresh energy into the room.

I look forward to laying out my new fitness program...I have NO idea what the sweat equity might entail, but I like the optimization of the diet, something I considered after consuming Taubes' The Case Against Sugar. Basically, I'm just cutting sugar out of my diet, insofar the kind of stuff that's not found out in the wild....which isn't as forthcoming as I'd like as it can be hidden by 60-something portrayals, but the basic gist is agave, malt, syrup, sugar, juice, caramel, corn sweetener, dextrin, dextrose, fructose, glucose, HFCS, honey, maltol, mannose, molasses, muscovado, panocha, saccharose, sucrose, and treacle (source).

My basic strategy is to reduce sugars thereby not requiring as much insulin which in turn, doesn't get in the way of hormones for resource allocation. While I have my base level of meals to make sure I capture maximum nutrition, I'm not so hardcore calorie-centric. This is especially notable as in these early stages, if I'm hungry beyond my meal plan, I have the freedom to eat 6 oz of beans or whatever. This softer stance has kept the binges at bay.

While I don't see much room for a significant weightloss outcome than what I've done in the past, I think I have stumbled on a way to not go nuts when I do go off my diet or more importantly, what do I do once I reach goal weight.

Tonight, I glide across a desolate night drive passing the neon borders outlining the shadows of midnight blues.

Before posting this (not so) inaugural post, I really wanted to have my site's design in place. And while I think I have something coming together, it's far from anything I'd like to feature, so I've chosen to go boilerplate so that I can put something out into the public. I recognize that my involvement on this site, for whatever reason, spurs real world results...it's far too easy to hide and not do anything. And if I keep playing with curly brackets in this paint-by-numbers gimmick, I'll never get off the ground.

I want a complete reset to my fitness regimen. I don't even know what it'll look like, except, well, as of midnight earlier tonight, I've started it. OK, so it began a little earlier, but I want that clean June 1 start.

I've considered bringing in all of the old posts of the past, poems from 1996 and posts from 2002 as some sort of repository, but honestly, it gets me down to think about everything I can no longer recover. And honestly, does that sort of historical record launch me out the gate?

So, it's a fresh start. Sure, I'll incorporate things from the past couple of years that work (and hopefully leave what didn't behind). I don't want to stagnate on that and I'm going to explore more.

And maybe by end of year, I'll return to social media to see if anyone remembers me, though I hope they don't recognize me!

Today would have been my Dad's 81st birthday. I am reminded of the following Shinedown lyrics:

Tell my mother, tell my father,
I have done the best I can
To make them realize
This is my life;
I hope they understand.
I'm not angry,
I'm just saying:
Sometimes, goodbye is a second chance.

-and-

All my heroes are dead and gone,
But, they're inside of me;
They still live on.

Shinedown's albums, Somewhere in the Stratosphere and The Sound of Madness made a huge impact on my earlier academics. Those two were the soundtrack during my TEFL certification month in the Czech Republic. They are among the albums that comprise the sonic landscape of my life.

In my cardio sessions, I've made the switch from Parks and Recreation seasons 2-5 to...BATTLESTAR GALACTICA. Yeah, I'm bringing out the big guns!

Scheduling the Tug-of-War Schedule

While I've been plundering time in my mornings for studies within my discipline, I've had to reduce the features of my workout to make the equation balance out. Up to now, I've been OK with that, because—C'MON, it just makes sense with respect to my development.

And while my diet alone cuts the weight wholesale, my physical regimen is the multiplier. And as construct 2019 Bill, I'm gonna need that added cardio beyond an hour of daily training...yet, I need to underscore my accounting studies.

So, how do I reconcile this?